It seems like only yesterday that I was holding all of you cradled in my arms.
That was 11 years ago today. Where does time go?
I don’t know.
What I do know is that my love for you is beyond words. If and when one day you too will be a father, you will understand what I mean.
Until then, know that I am not perfect but I try to do the best that I can – for you – always.
The first 11 years have gone by in a whirlwind of memories and emotions. Only a couple more years to go and you will be a teenager. That scares me. Mostly because it means that a couple more years after that you will be off on your own, whether to college or somewhere else forging your own path into adulthood.
And the scariest part is that I won’t have you around always, like I do now, to share in the everyday moments of life. I don’t think I’m ready for that. But time waits for no one and so while I look back with a full heart and ahead with trepidation, it is the now that I want to focus on.
Making every day count. Without making excuses. There is always time if we choose to find it. Time to play, time to talk, time to read, time to travel, and time to just be.
Time to make new memories. Together.
— Happy Birthday Bubba. Papa loves you too much.
March 10, 2018 at 8:42 pm
Beautifully stated, with love.
Kevin
March 10, 2018 at 8:46 pm
Happy Birthday to your son. Sharing the every day moments of life is what it’s all about. The time does go quickly. I love your line “There is always time if we choose to find it.” so true and so easy not to find the time in our busyness.
March 10, 2018 at 8:48 pm
Oh… messy crying here. Yesterday I wrote about my last snow day with my son who will be going to college in the fall. I wish I could tell you it will not be hard – it will. BUT I will tell you that somehow you grow towards it together. This is the truth: There is always time if we choose to find it. Find it, treasure it, and be ready for it whenever he has the time. Ok – need to find the tissues. Thank you for sharing your heart – happy birthday to your son!
Clare
March 10, 2018 at 8:50 pm
Thanks for those kind words Clare. Much appreciated, Alex
March 10, 2018 at 8:57 pm
This slice made me cry. My sons are 22 and 24, and struggling their way into adulthood. I look at the middle school boys I teach, and feel like it was just yesterday that I was attending basketball tournaments and helping with homework and running carpools. It goes way, way, way too fast. Enjoy, enjoy, enjoy!
March 10, 2018 at 9:26 pm
It took me a few moments to compose myself after reading your slice . . . and then I read Clare’s comment! So much for a relaxing cup of Saturday morning coffee.
As a mother of an 18-year old son who is also getting ready to head off to college in the fall, I have found that hosting my son’s friends at my house for the last 15 years has been one of my best parenting moves. Connecting so closely with my son’s friends has allowed me a connection with my son that I wouldn’t trade for anything!
Enjoy parenting. It’s quite an adventure!
March 10, 2018 at 10:35 pm
Happy birthday to him. Being a parent is quite an adventure and it does make time fly! He is a kind young man and it is clear that you enjoy each other’s company. Have fun celebrating him. He is lucky to have a father who loves him too much (no such thing as too much).
March 11, 2018 at 3:17 am
Happy 11th birthday! Living in the present, in each moment, will store up wonderful memories for you but it will also build the foundation for the future. In my story– They grew up too fast. They left. They returned. Now, they’re blessing me with grandchildren. It is a good story, a very good life.
March 11, 2018 at 4:47 am
What a celebration of life and love; what a gift to your son, both the story and the knowledge of how much his dad loves him. Priceless. Yes, we have to savor every moment, now. I’ve learned that when the scary future does come, it comes with strength to meet it, with grace right at the moment it’s needed, not before. Trusting life. Happy birthday to him. Beautiful words and emotion, Papa, and what a beautiful blog!
March 11, 2018 at 2:25 pm
What a beautiful post about fatherhood and the trepidation that goes along with it. Happy birthday to your son!
March 13, 2018 at 8:41 pm
Such a sweet note…it is crazy how fast time flies with kids….and even though mine are much younger, I also feel nervous for the onset of teenagers….